April 14, 2013
Pain is a very big problem in RA. I am never without pain. The worst pain was in December where it felt like broken glass in my joints. Pain scale was off the charts at least a 15. Movement was extremely painful. Moving in bed was intolerable. I couldn’t even pull my covers up. I finally took off my down comforter as it was too heavy to move.
Now after 4 months I am in better shape. The pain varies from a 3 to an 8. I think of it as simmering when at 3. When it climbs, I worry. I also feel a little discouraged.
I look at my hands which are still swollen. They are in pain. I worry about joint damage. I worry about losing function. My wrists hurt. Both shoulders are a mess. My feet and ankles hurt. When I stand after sitting, my pelvic girdle joints will be stiff and hurting. I say this in commenting on how it is for me. I don’t dwell on it. I am concerned about my outcome. I do work full time, my own business. It keeps my attention. I love what I do and want to keep doing it. That is my concern.
Today is Sunday. I will take my 100# dog for a good walk. Finish my household tasks. Go to work for about 4 hours. Then I will settle in, take the methotrexate and watch a movie.